Have you ever lived in the land of Denial???

I have been living in the land of denial. Do you know what that is??? Well, let me fill you in. You see about two years ago, I began to pack on the pounds. I was working all of the time, exercise got pushed aside, I rarely did anything physical and I never passed up a sweet. And that began to show on my butt.

I saw my butt in a video and almost died! How did I get this big??? I mean, I know how, but it just seemed to happen overnight. So, I went to the doctor a couple of weeks ago and the reality hit. I had to move out of this land I had been living in. I got on the scale and did not look, God no!! I had to be in denial just a little bit longer. Until I was getting ready to leave and they handed me the write-up about my visit, for my records and as I got into the car I looked down and saw it. I saw my weight.

I wanted to cry and cry and cry some more. It was worse than I ever thought. OMG!!! I had tried diets. I did one that had what you might call astronaut food and bars that tasted like drywall. It sucked and when I only lost two pounds after starving myself for a week, I just about died. The person who got me started was like, “sometimes it takes a couple of weeks to kick in.” Do you honestly think I have a couple of weeks to keep starving??!!

I did the intermittent fasting. I used to intermittent fast all of the time, but for some reason, I just could not do it. I would be super hungry during the day and could not go without eating. I would last until about 4 and then I would devour everything in sight, the reasoning of course that it was okay since this was the only time I would eat all day. And let me tell you, the choices I was making were anything but healthy.

Where I live, we have a delivery for every yummy restaurant in town. You just pick up your phone and open the app and order. My weakness is Mexican food. I can tear up chips and cheese dip like none other!! Now, I am wearing chips and cheese dip on my behind!

You see, I know exactly how I got this big, I was just in complete denial until I saw the numbers. I was upset and almost had a stroke, but then I decided it was time. It was time to watch it and weigh myself each week. I got my scale and dusted it off and put in new batteries. I then made a decision that once a week, I would get on it first thing in the morning.

I have to give myself props, I left the land of denial and now I know why that cute purple dress would not go over my boobs. Yeah, it is that bad. But I am on my way to getting healthier and feeling better and the one thing I can say is that when I start 2021, I will at least be a few pounds lighter and that is something that makes me super excited!!!

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Later!

Kara